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Jan23
The Warrior within
Yesterday’s battle was tricky, but suprising.
Yesterday I had a battle, an all too familiar battle that started in the morning. I seem to have the upper hand in the battle during the daylight hours, but as the night slowly crept in, I felt my strength weakening. I knew this meant I would have to do some serious praying, but I felt myself making old moves that I knew would not work against my opponent, I knew they didn’t work because they never worked in the past.
The night set in and the cold wind covered my skin. I tried to prepare for rest, but my heart remained restless, and my mind would not quiet down. I knew that it was a sign that I shouldn’t put my defenses down, but I was tired so I ignored my mind and heart. Then I was hit, I was hit hard and I felt myself falling down and splashing into the water! I thought maybe I should call an ally, maybe he could give me words of comfort, or maybe read some inspirational words, but none of those could help me as I splashed around in my sea of tears. I panicked as I kept splashing and going under. Then I kept getting a vision of the two floatation devices that I always kept on me; my pen that was my paddle and paper that was my boat.
I knew they would help me get thru the night, but the thought of writing my feelings down seemed like it would take so much energy, and time, but I couldn’t stand the thought of this repetitive act, of me always falling into the same abyss and waiting to be saved by someone.
I pulled out my floatation devices and started writing my feelings out. I woke up this morning and saw the sun and smiled.
This morning after reading the post and the comments on Paulo Coelho’s blog Another wrong stepit makes me think about his quote
“The Warrior of Light knows that no man is an island.”
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)
Yesterday there were many WOL out on the field together fighting The Good Fight!
Oct14
Today the journey continues
She writes to free her soul!
Dec24
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months passed and I thank you for keeping me!
2009 was a battle for me. My faith was tested my character was tested I was living a lie that had gone on too long, my spirituality wasn’t moving anywhere, and plummeting to the deep grounds. I was bitten and poisoned by something that weakened my spirit I started to loose faith in my faith. I found myself tired of life, I I realized that nothing absolutely nothing was stimulating to me. I didn’t see the joy in life, I no longer saw the beauty that a single flower possessed or felt the joy that came from the laughter of a small child. I knew something had to change but I didn’t know what or how.
I was out on a boat in the ruff sea sinking slowly, my cries were muffled by the roars of the storm i couldn’t hear my own cries. My vision was blurred bythe heavy rains pouring down. I felt like I wanted to just jump off the boat and give into the raging storm, but there was something inside of me that was very small that wasn’t ready to give up, every time that little something would keep me inside that boat and tell me that we would soon find shore even though I no longer had paddles to row myself in any unknown direction, that little part of me said just hold on. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months passed but the stormed didn’t pass and the little light inside of me kept on shining. It kept on glowing like a beacon in a light house.
One night I fell asleep and dreamed Iwas on a plane flying high in the sky on my way home. I was looking out the window of the plane talking to God.
Dear God I know things must change inside of me and I don’t want to keep on living like this, bring me closer to you, take my spirituality higher, I know this is not how you want me to live in a stagnant life with lies that kill and this is surely not how I want to live. I’m asking for your help. I am willing to let go of everything and anything just change me fix my spirit make me brand new, because what really matters is doing your will. So if you must take all from me I am willing to walk this path and do your will.
I woke up out of the dream on the plane and found myself washed up to shore on an island. The sun was shining so bright it was hard for me to see it was like I was being blinded by a bright sunbeam. I crawled farther into land my legs and arms were weak and my mouth was dry. I lied on my back and said Thank you Lord for saving me from the raging sea. The dream of the airplane flight seemed so real to me. I was starting to think I survived a plane crash, but the seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks and months out in sea was very real as well, I was just thankful to see the sun again and feel myself safe on shore. I got up and walked around the island, looked for life other than myself. I was surprised to find life all around me. Sea shells moving along the beach with little crabs living inside, birds flying high in the sky, green trees swaying in the wind, flowers of every color blooming inland. Fresh streams of water, and beautiful water falls pouring off mountain tops.Everything was alive and beautiful.
I was alone but not alone. God spoke to me in many ways and languages through every living thing on the island.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months went by. It took me a while to get use to solitude, it was like rehab, cold nights, nights of fear, nights of nothing but silence, nights of questions and no answers. Days of walking along the beach, exploring the jungle, and swimming in the big blue sea. These nights and days started to turn into long conversations with God. Nights of dancing along the beach singing and laughing, cooking and eating with Lord, if someone had saw me they would have thought I went mad, but,I wasn’t crazy, I was filled with joy the joy of the Lord. There where times I found myself in deep prayer on my knees giving thanks to Jesus, sometimes I could see his feet standing before me.
I took notice how my mind, body and spirit was transforming. I would sometimes go to the spring and stare into it to see my reflection, I loved what I saw, I looked brand new, the glow of the river made it seem like I was glowing all over, One day I even heard the spring say to me that it also liked what it saw when it stared into my eyes to see its reflection and the glow from my eyes made it look like the stream itself was glowing with a beautiful light. This made me smile.
I was enjoying my new found relationship with God and the lessons he was teaching to me. One day a big boat passed by my first thoughts was swim out to it, yell for it, or set a fire for the boat to see. Then I decided not to do anything. I didn’t want to leave my new home everything was peaceful and calm, I didn’t want it to be disturbed by the temptations and troubles that were out there. So I sat there on the beach and watched the boat pass. I was afraid of going back to the same.
That night God came to me and asked me “Why did you let the boat pass”? I told God I was perfectly comfortable in my new home and didn’t want to return. I didn’t want to return to the old me.
God said to me “Its time for you to take the lessons that I taught you and venture out from this small island and put them to test, challenge yourself, grow, find life and light not just in the animals, crabs, trees, flowers and stream of water here on this island but look for the small miracles that are waiting to be seen in everyday living, find the light in other people eyes and feel free to show them your light. By doing this you will see their light and many other hidden lights mysteriously appear. My light shines in all! Sometimes it just takes for one person to let their light shine so let your light shine for that boat to see you and get on it.
God: Take a look up there in the sky what do you see?
I stared hard into the night sky and I spotteda small star shining.
Me: I see a small star up there
God: Relax your eyes and scan the sky.
As I relaxed and looked at the big dark blue sky I started to see stars pop out of no where. Soon the entire sky was filled with bright shining lights.
Me: Wow the entire sky is filled with stars.
I stood up and looked out at the ocean and saw another ship sailing in the night. I ran to my fire and fed it with more branches and leaves and made it bigger and brighter so the ship could see my fire.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months passed.
I stepped off the boat and found my family waiting on shore for me with open arms, smiling faces, and bright eyes.
I knew then that it is true that the soul needs to be tested it needs change and challenges… I was deep in the ocean sailing no where, then high in the sky soaring with the birds, later planted on an island in solitude, then surrounded by many people with a bright gleams of light in their eyes singing Praise to the Lord for he is so worthy.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months passed. My faith was tested in these times, 2009 was a blessing in trials and tribulations and I proudly enter 2010 the Holy year and give praises and thanks to the Carpenter who has made me, broke me, molded me, and fixed me.
I celebrate Christmas because it is you Jesus the heavenly gift that was sent down to earth who I have found salvation through. I thank you and I love you.
Reunika Marie Parham AKA Bright Light Warrior Nika
Merry Christmas all and Happy New Year 2010 (Holy Year)
Manual of the Warior of light By Paulo Coelho
“Warriors of the light always have a certain gleam in their eyes.
Oct22
The Warrior thinks: ‘Changes must be made that I do not feel like making.’
I thought I had read all the pages in Manual of the Warrior of Light, but today I randomly opened the Manual up to the below entry. Like I stated a while back I always randomly open the Manual because I believe in magic and that the Universe speaks to us in mysterious ways so whatever I randomly open it up to is what I am suppose to be reading at that particular time.
If you would like to read more from the manual check this site out CLICK
The Warrior of light is now waking from his dream.
He Thinks: ‘I do not know how to deal with this light that is making me grow.’ The light, however doers not disappear.
The warrior thinks: ‘Changes must be made that I do not feel like making.’
The light remains, because ‘feel’ is a word full of traps.
Then the eyes and heart of the warrior begin to grow accustomed to the light. It no longer frightens him and he finally accepts his own legend, even if this means running risk.
The warrior has been asleep for a long time. It is only natural that he should wake up very gradually.
Oct10
little spider in the box you bit my arm and touched my heart
This morning I woke up before the alarm clock washed my face, brushed my teeth had some warm water put on my workout clothes went up stairs to the gym did a nice little workout. Took my shower got dressed for work picked up a cup of coffee and donut from Krispy Kreme arrived at work and got into my typical routine, checked my emails, logged onto facebook post a couple things went on twitter, google reader…..then my routine stopped when I reached into a box for some paper and was bit by an unknown insect. I shortly found myself in an emergency room getting shots of steroids to open up my lungs and shots of benadryl to stop the reaction to whatever venom that creepy crawly shot into my arm, and a IV to flush out my system. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked like a the elephant woman face and arms with huge bumps and whelps all over. I could still feel my lungs tight as I slumped over on the hospital bed thinking and talking more like pleading to God to not let me die like this from some unknown poisonous insect bite in a grungy hospital room, with no family or loved one around for millions of miles away. Even though my spirit often tells me of the day I will die which is long from now I was in so much discomfort in that hospital room with my lungs tight and needles in my veins I had completely forgotten about that and I thought for a brief moment that today was going to be my last day.
So I made a promise to myself that if I made it through this awful allergic reaction I would start seriously working on those things that I want to accomplish like that love song, the kids book, and making plans for the coffee shop/book store.
Which got me to thinking about the question Paulo Coelho posted on his blog earlier this week Would you do a list of 5, 6 or 7 things that you should do to improve your quality of life?
Earlier this week I wrote in my journal; what I use to think that the Qualities of life was based around:
1. Having a huge house (even though all my life I wanted a small condo/studio maybe a small house in the country nothing big) But I put the huge house on my list of instead because i figured I would be more important and special to my friends/family with the big house that cost way more than what my salary and cost of living added up to in 5yrs meaning I would be paying on this house for 10 or 15 + years
2. having a huge family and getting married before I turned 30( my soul always knew I wouldn’t have a huge family, and I never was in a rush for marriage until I started getting those questions (are you married yet do you have any kids and when I would reply I’m not married but I have a son who lives with his father and his father and I are not together and no I do not love his father and I have no intentions of ever being in a romantic/relationship with him then people would give that look like you are completely fucked up I started telling myself that I wanted to get married have more kids so I can fit into society and stopped being looked at as some freak of nature. It got so bad that it ruined the relationship I was in. I put so much pressure on him unconsciously that he took off running.
3. A career that my family/friends approved of. I was willing to go into a career field only so I can make money to buy that house that would take years to pay off and put off my dreams of writing books, owning a coffee shop/book store and having that after school program to help inner city kids stay in school and and pursue their dreams. WoW its true “Living your dream or giving it up also costs the same price, which is usually very high”
So now that I know what it is that I want in my life I told myself two days ago that I have to start making steps (if baby steps to get those things accomplished) I already have been fighting the good fight now I’m ready to take it to another level. I do understand when it says fight the good fight. Its not easy going against the grain at time or not being afraid when flowing with the river when at times it feels like its moving so fast and out of control and sometimes you forget which way the river is going, and it hurts when you hit those rocks that protrude out the water or fish that bite at your toes. Oh yes, it hurts, and it does get lonely sometimes when you find yourself on the river bank all alone and its just the fire to keep you warm. You understand the word Good in Good Fight when your start to see God’s miracles working in your life and the river slows down and there are no rocks scraping your skin the fish don’t bite and you find company to enjoy the fire camp with at night. There is laughter and joy in your heart and you know the wins and lost battles were all worth it and the ones to follow will be worth it as well you say thank you to God in that very moment for the Good Fight.
Here is my list of things to improve the quality of my life. I already started some some years ago and others months ago after my break that cause me to wakeup I started changing things that I did not like with my life, doing things that brought me joy and closer to bringing my dreams a reality.
1. I know now before committing myself to something or someone I ask myself am I being TRUE to Myself ? If I am not being true to myself then there is no committing myself.
2. When the battle gets in the midst of achieving my dreams remember that the cost of achieving the dream is the same as giving up on it. Do I want to suffer for a short period of time while making that dream reality or suffer the rest of my life in giving up on it always having it eat at my soul becoming a torturous Zahir? Its best to move forward and endure the pain in pursing the dream because there will be joy in the morning if I take this path.
3. Keep joy in my heart like a child remember to live more child like; laugh, sing, dance, and play. When I start feeling to serious about the not so serious things in life remember to be childlike find the joy again in life never to old be God’s child.
3. Being thankful for my life as it is, and the presents that come along with, being thankful that God has given me the ability and acknowledgement to make the changes in my life when I want and when its needed.
4. Being aware of the present moment smelling the flowers, touch the cement, climb a tree, swim in the ocean, play in the sand get bit by spiders and live to tell about it.
3. Finding Joy in family, friends, and strangers seeing and acknowledging the light that shines within them (always look for that little light that shines in their eyes its there sometimes you have to look a little hard and letting my light to shine as well no matter what is also a help in seeing the light in someone else. Being Open to meeting new People and going to new places. I know that my soul ask these things of me its food for my soul its picky like a vegetarian only wanting to eat whats good for it not asking the impossible because there is no impossible.
4. Being able to reinvent myself when its needed; learning to let go of things that are no longer good for me. Being open to change. If I need to be fluid to flow with the water then I become fluid, If I need to be like the wind and go into transient then I become air, learning to be like energy because I am energy.
5. Giving back knowing that life is a cycle one Big Chakra you have to keep it spinning and clean keep that good energy moving. what you give is what you get.
6. Prayer having prayer a daily conscious and unconscious habit in my life is a must. Being able to have a close relationship with God being able to talk with God on levels. Acknowledging that God is my creator, my teacher, my love, my friend, my mother, my father, God is the flower I see when I walk past the flower bush and rub my fingers across it and feel and see its beauty, the moon that gives me light at night, the sun that wakes me in the morning and brightens my days, the rain that quenches my thirst, the wind that carries the pollen and brings changes in my life, Food that grows in the garden and nourish my body, the music that moves my soul, the air that passes through my lungs, the words that speak to mind, heart, and soul. God is the fire that burns inside of my heart with deep passion.
7.Leaving behind my last spiritual grain of sand not just for my son, but 20+ generation after him.
8. 1 Corinthians 13:13
Sep22
Its about going through the fire and testifying about it.
“I regret that it takes a life to learn how to live.”
I read this quote this morning on Bear
It got me to thinking don’t have anything else to do but think 
. I asked myself is this statement true? Does it take a life to learn how to live? I’m 30 going on 31 and sometimes I feel like I don’t know a damn thing about living, but I just keep on at it (LOL). Seems like I’m always learning something new when it comes to life and I must say life aint easy but someone has to live it. I read recently on Paulo Coelho’s twitter “If you lose, don’t lose the lesson”. I pray that I learn the most vital lessons that present themselves as I live. Which leads to another question (giggle) If I kept losing the lessons what would my life be worth? Would it be so bad? My answer was no as long as I never gave up I guess the moment you give up you lose the lesson. Right? Umm its too early for all of this? Maybe another cup of coffee.
Last night this handsome young man around 60 or late 50′s asked me out on a date, I was very flattered he was very persistent I’m actually thinking about going 
Not sure if I will blog about it if I decide to go or not, but he was just too cute I had to take his number just encase curiosity starts to scratch at my brain.
Whats sweet about life is even though I have put myself through so many fires feeling the pain (the burn) as I take risk at life I always manages to heal beautiful looking and functioning like a brand new state of the art android “I am an alien from outer space”!! So even though a part of me might be afraid of getting burned by the fire I’m still willing to take that risk and live life to the fullest being molded over and over constantly transforming into a beautiful work of ART. Its about going through the fire and testifying about it.
still smiling
Aug24
To the Archer who shares! Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to the Archer who shares with others through his books the joy of the bow and arrow, letting readers and friends know we are not alone in our walk, but we are deeply connected.
May your day be filled immense joy as the Warriors gather around the camp fire and sing Happy Birthday to another beloved Warrior of Light, Paulo Coelho!!!
With Love
Bright Light Warrior Nika
Aug4
From: The Little Zen Companion
Photo by Jacky Spitzmüller a WOL
Aug3
beautiful crazy sunday night
Yesterday Paulo Coelho wrote on his twitter .Do something crazy this Sunday. Your soul needs it. I thought to myself; yes my soul does need something out of the ordinary 
So I kept thinking what can I do that is crazy but won’t get me in any trouble, considering I’m living in a country that puts rules on what you wear out into town?
So I went to the gym worked out went home still thinking what to do what to do? I took a shower put on a pretty dress drove out to the beach sat in the car drunk some water pulled out my note book and wrote a three page intimate letter to the Universe, rolled the letter up slipped it into the empty water bottle walked out to the water put some sea shells inside the bottle and threw it out as far into the sea as possible said a prayer and watched it in the night light drift out far. I then sat there and listened to the voices of the people out in the sea laughing and talking splashing water enjoying life. I listened to the waves crash to shore I wrote my name in the sand with a small sea shell along with the date I arrived here ending in 2009. I felt alive i could see, smell, feel everything around me and in me.
Some may consider that to be crazy depending on your state of mind. All I know is that it felt really good. I went home last night and had a beautiful peaceful sleep.
Love
Marie AKA Bright Light Warrior Nika 
“The Breviary of Medieveal Knights says:
‘The spiritual energy of the Path uses justice and patience to prepare your spirit.
This is the Path of the Knight: a path that is at once easy and difficult, because it forces one to set aside trivial things and chance frindships. That is why, at first, many hesitate to follow it.
This is the first teaching of the Knights: you will erase everything you had written in the book of your life up until now: restlessness, uncertainty, lies. And in the places of all this you will write the word courage. By beginning the journey with that word and continuing with faith in God, you will arrive wherever you need to arrive.’
Paulo Coelho Manual of the Warrior of Light
