Category Archives: Paulo Coelho’s blog

Jan23

The Warrior within

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The Warrior within

Yesterday’s battle was tricky, but suprising.

Yesterday I had a battle, an all too familiar battle that started in the morning. I seem to have the upper hand in the battle during the daylight hours, but as the night slowly crept in, I felt my strength weakening.  I knew this meant I would have to do some serious praying, but I felt myself making old moves that I knew would not work against my opponent, I knew they  didn’t work because they never worked in the past.

The night set in and the cold wind covered my skin.  I tried to prepare for rest, but my heart remained restless, and my mind would not quiet down. I knew that it was a sign that I shouldn’t put my defenses down, but I was tired so I ignored my mind and heart.  Then I was hit, I was hit hard and I felt myself falling down and splashing into the water! I thought maybe I should call an ally, maybe he could give me words of comfort, or maybe read some inspirational words, but none of those could help me as I splashed around in my sea of tears. I panicked as I kept splashing and going under. Then I kept getting a vision of the two floatation devices that I always kept on me; my pen that was my paddle and paper that was my boat.

I knew they would help me get thru the night, but the thought of writing my feelings down seemed like it would take so much energy, and time, but I couldn’t stand the thought of this repetitive act, of me always falling into the same abyss and waiting to be saved by someone.

I pulled out my floatation devices and started writing my feelings out.  I woke up this morning and saw the sun and smiled.

 

This morning after reading the post and the comments on Paulo Coelho’s blog Another wrong stepit makes me think about his quote

“The Warrior of Light knows that no man is an island.”
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

Yesterday there were many WOL out on the field together fighting The Good Fight!

 

Aug12

A beautiful Prayer

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A beautiful Prayer

So this year has brought about many changes in my life.  Leaving me to sort out, accept, and live with all kinds of emotions and experiences.

For the first time in my life I feel like I have no choice, but to live in the now and stop trying to control the future or logic the past event. This living the now is teaching me to just have faith another deeper meaning of faith. Even though I feel fear sometimes lurking in the pit of my stomach (fear of the unknown) I’m learning to move in the midst of fear, because if I want to truly live and feel alive I have no choice, but to keep on moving past the fear.

The end of 2010  I had to abandon a well-paying job that was poisoning my spirit, I found myself almost homeless in a country that isn’t even my home country.

I have started a new job that doesn’t pay a dime, just enough to survive, but it gives me a big peace of mind, and its teaching me to live within my means and there are many stages of gluttony in this material world. I don’t see myself in this job for very long, but at the moment it puts me in a position were my visions are not obscured and its breaking me and rebuilding me into a stronger version of who I am.

This year I had to said goodbye to two very close friends that I leaned on for the past 7 yrs, and learned that its only distance that separates us. There are people in this world I’m connected to on a spiritual level. I like to call these people my soul mates be it man or woman.

I saw a love in its true colors and learned to accept it for who and what it is, even though at first I wanted to taint it with negative thoughts, because it  didn’t turn out to be what (who) I wanted it to be. I was reminded that Love is a spirit and it can not be controlled and when it visits my home it’s all about how I welcome it into my home and entertain as a hostess.

This year I’m learning to let go of attachments, this has got to be one of the hardest lessons so far. It feels like someone is pulling a jagged knife out of the side of me. I’ve gotten angry with family, friends, myself, even God when it comes to these lessons. Many days I just cried and cried. I knew I had let go, but the pain was like giving birth.

I confessed to a friend over dinner that I felt that I was being defeated as I let go of each attachment. I didn’t want to give up! I wanted to hold on to everything I thought and felt I rightfully earned in life. I realized the more I tried to hold on the more I felt sick and I knew a lot of these things I was fighting to hold on to was no longer good for me spiritually and physically. So I let the tears flow and with each tear an attachment was released.

I had to learn a deeper meaning of humbling myself through continuous prayer. I have been  saying the Lord’s prayer more this year than when I was child saying it every night on my knees beside my bed. I say it in the car, at work, in the shower, while cooking…

“Our Father in heaven,

hallowed be your name.

Your kingdom come,

your will be done,

on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread,

and forgive us our debts,

as we also have forgiven our debtors.

And lead us not into temptation,

but deliver us from evil.”

Love has revisited my home in the form of Solitude this year.

Late night conversations with Solitude, about self-love, and falling in Love with the Creator on a different level of loving.

I’ve realized that there are going to be a lot of things that I might not understand as mentioned in the beautiful prayer below I found an agreement to replace understanding.

I read this prayer last year, but this year as I face a new transformation in my life, It touches me deeper. My friend posted the link on twitter and I read it again this morning.

This will be my new prayer for 2011  Prayer for Forgiveness along with the Lord’s Prayer.

Jane Stewart

@ArtPraxis

Prayer of Forgiveness ( Aleph): http://t.co/5IgCXlzAmen <3
Aug31

You can heal yourself!

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You can heal yourself!
This week on Paulo Coelho’s blog, he asked how do you heal your emotional wounds.
Well, this got me to thinking because at the moment I’m in the process of healing, healing from multiple battles that I have gone through within the past five years. Love and war, finding courage, being honest with myself and others, forgiving myself and others.
My friend Cordie made a comment on one of my post she stated that it seemed that I have been a little sad lately. This is true Cordie, I’ve been having my days some sunny and some cloudy, but I’m healing.
While in the process of healing  I’m trying to make sure that I remain soft and loving and I decided to get a full body check up done when I took notice of the wounds that I had, might as well heal the old wounds too.  Peeling away callous that grew around my heart. It is all about growth.
So I decided to answer Paulo’s question:

To me a wound is like a cooking a beautiful dish or fixing a recipe that went wrong.

I start by telling myself its time to get real and honest with myself
and realizing that there is a process to this making this perfect dish or fixing a recipe gone wrong; so I must be kind and patient while cooking.

***note when preparing food or fixing a dish***

*Remember to always clean hands and any kitchen knife that is used to avoid contamination*

One way of getting a clean mind is through prayer see Romans 12. So, when preparing or fixing a dish, always pray before preparation. Just as a clean mind brings good energy when trying to heal wounds (and thus brings a healthy and faster healing process), good energy when cooking brings positive results.

*Remember: if onions are apart of your recipe, there will probably be some tears, as well as some mold (old beliefs) that has to be removed in order for the onions to be edible.*

*Always use care when using kitchen knives to avoid cutting yourself.*

Being kind to oneself is always a plus when healing. It is not good to have
regrets or beat yourself up when you are trying to heal. This only causes more
damage to the wound and can possibly cause new wounds. a Splash of Forgiveness is a must in all dishes!

* When adding spices, always remember moderation and balance. No one likes a plate that’s too salty or bland. When healing, remember to always find a balance. Too much of anything (medication, co-dependency of something/someone) can be harming. Keep in mind balance/moderation.

*Have fun when preparing or fixing a dish. Put on music, dance around the kitchen, sing! Don’t be too serious! Relax and enjoy the art of cooking! With all battles in life you will get wounds, but during your healing process, try to keep your sense of humor. Laugh at the battle that caused the wound and enjoy the healing process. Take notice of the beauty of how the body and soul heals itself .

* All chefs, even the ones that are considered master chefs, make mistakes when preparing a dish. The good thing is that mistakes can be fixed with the proper knowledge and culinary skills (The Art of Cooking). With life, there is always war and with war you will get wounded. But with all battles, you learn different strategies with each win and loss. When wounds have healed and its time to get back out there and fight the good fight, you have learned new ways of not getting wounded like before or new ways to recover from battle. (The Art of HEALING)

Well, this is what I have learned so far in healing my wounds still learning for there are more mountains to climb and battles to be fought. ;)

With Love,
Marie

Jul11

Love’s insomnia

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Love’s insomnia

WARNINg:  ( just to let who ever is reading this know I’ve decided to blog about my break up, blogging helps me find clearity so be aware you might see a plethora of  roller coaster emotions day to day; I pray that this lesson this phase in my life ends with a happy ending, and at the end of this road I am able to love, sing, dance, feel free at ease again)

 

 

Its 4:02 am I can not sleep so I decided to take a walk through the internet. I cried more today a lot more; don’t know what made me think one day would be enough to get my tears out? My heart is in a pain that the flesh can not understand and I’m trying to live with this for I know it will pass, it is not my first time being wounded by love, but when the pain hits its all brand new again. I finally decided to take another visit to Paulo Coelho’s Forum on Soulmates only made one visit when he first posted the video and since I have avoided reading it  due to my situation. Well, right timing as always and he posted this poem by Gibran last night, which speaks to my soul.

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep,
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. read more visit soulmates at Paulo Coelho’s blog

 

With all my pain that I feel because I choose to believe in Love and eat from the plate of Love. I’m going to say a prayer.

 

Lord,

Thank you for this pain I feel right now, I know its only you teaching me and those you teach are those you love. I am glad to be loved by you.

Amen.

May15

Food for thought

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Food for thought

While reading my 1 favorite blog  this particular post got me to thinking deeply. I never looked at time in this manner.

 Just wanted to share it with whomever passes by.

The more we kill time, the more time kill us
The more we kill time, the more time kill us

Oh yeah I like how Paulo Coelho’s new release the Winner Stands Alone ( the main theme is actually fashion) was released around the same TIME as his shirts in MNG fashion clothing store. Perfect timing. ;)