Maybe I pass this place at least 3 times a week, and each time I have a slight urge and curiosity to venture inside to find out how good this psychic might be can this person have all the answers to my questions?

I ask myself what is it that I would like to hear from this person who claims to see and know the unseen and unknown?

Then I start to think about all the things I would like to know at the moment:

I will eventually do something with my life where I feel a tad bit of satisfaction, that will last more than the moment.

Is this whole pursuit of following my dreams all in vain?

Oh yeah whats going to happen in my love life will I eventually fall in love and will it be the type of love that is mutual and will we be brave enough to stay together through life’s difficult challenges?

Will my son, grow up to resent me for not being with him and his father here in Alabama, for choosing to let his father raise him? Will he ever understand that I do not love his father, I never loved his father? Will he know that despite the choices I have made by choosing to let him live with his father because it was in his best intrest I do love him with all of my God…Will I ever make peace with the choices that I have made when it comes to my son?

I can see myself saying “Sorry Mr. Or Mrs. Psychic, for all the questions, but can you tell me what is the purpose of traveling all over the world for so many years, away from my family and all that was familiar to me, gaining a new outlook on people, religion, spirituality, politics basically my entire outlook on LIFE has changed, I’ve been transformed in so many ways and now that I have returned I’m not quite sure what to do with myself and this person I have become, can you give me some advice?

Then the psychic would say to me,”I’m not a therapist dear, but I do have a cousin who lives two houses down who is; maybe she can help you in that area of your life, but I can tell you that when you die none of these concerns or questions will matter anymore”.

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I have a deep concern, that if I don’t eventually do something with myself and start giving back to the world, I will eventually morph into a walking dead citizen of the world who wakes up every day goes off to a job that has no meaning besides enslaving her to earning just enough to feed herself, pay the bills, and keep a roof over her head, living from pay check to pay check. Life would eventually loose meaning. I will no longer do the things that bring joy to my life like traveling to new places, meeting new people, enjoying the company of friends and family and a life partner. God will simply become an extraterrestrial being up beyond the big blue sky and I will only seek God on that one special day set aside during the week, or when i’m only in need of some material substance. I’m afraid I will gain that life of routine that surrounds me.

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I admit that I do desire to have all the things that bring joy to my heart!!! Love, Family, lots of travels, romance, most of all I desire to make a difference in this world by helping others, I would love a home to return to after being abroad, I desire to get the most out of life while i’m here living, I yearn to always to continue to grow spiritually and consciously be in the presence of God day in and day out. I desire a career that brings joy and satifaction.

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Not knowing is driving me nuts not being sure about anything right now in my life is making me gaze off into the direction of a person claiming to know, but know what?

Can a psychic bring that assurance?   I don’t doubt the works that a psychic can do, shit I’m not even sure of the works that a psychic can perform, but I’m sure if I continue put in the physical, mental, and spiritual works I will be able to find all the answers without the help of a psychic, when I take the time to reflect truly reflect on my past and bring myself into the NOW, I gain clarity and I can see the works that the Lord has performed in my life and as God is my witness.    all i need is just a little bit of faith as small as a mustard seed, and I’m assured that the only psychic I need is the Lord.

All will be just fine and nothing is in vain.