Sometimes all it takes is just a kiss
to remind you
of a love you knew
in a previous life.
A month or two ago I read a very interesting and beautiful book called Let Your Life Speak by Parker Palmer. Very self-engaging read it was. A year ago I decided to let my life speak by deciding to leave a secured job and going in search to pursue my dreams and find out what my vocation (purpose in life) is.
I can tell you I had no idea a year ago that I would be where I am today. I let faith be my radar, and took off in blind faith without any particular plan A, B, or C. I just resigned moved all the way across the world (from Doha, to DC, now in Florida). I went to DC decided to enroll in Aveda institute learn about skin care (esthiology) something I wanted to do for years, but let fear keep from pursing this dream.
Well, while in DC my eyes and heart was subjected to poverty and homelessness. I had no idea what a great issue it was in America. Each day I would enter the Nation’s capital and I would see it in the daylight and night life surrounding me. I couldn’t understand it, and I couldn’t rest at night knowing that there is something I could do about it. Well, almost facing being homeless myself I understood how easy it could happen to me and just about anyone else so easily.
I eventually left DC after graduating from Aveda, and I returned home to Florida. I thought I would find work in the beauty and spa industry doing esthetics, but I decided to be still and let my life speak for me in what direction I would take when pursing work. So I decided to enroll in Eckerd college this January to start on my path to pursue my degree in creative writing so I could gain the technical skills in writing (something I’ve always wanted to do since I was a child was be a writer). Well, since I’ve moved back to Florida the world of poverty and homelessness also showed its face full frontal in every direction I turned.
Then one day while looking for work, but not forcing it, the opportunity presented itself to me to work with helping homeless veterans or those on the verge of becoming homeless gain housing and become stable in housing. I knew it was a sign that this was the direction that I should take. So I applied for the job an interviewed, and now I’m working with an organization that is helping to make a change in the community. Little did I know how very detailed this mission would be.
Its been three weeks since I’ve worked with this organization and today I asked myself, “do I have the heart, wisdom, and strength to do this kind of work?” Well, my mentor at school presented a class for me to take at this Spring Semester and its called Poverty & Homelessness in Florida. Tonight was my first day in this class, and OH MY! This journey will be very interesting.
Life really is a journey and I realized by having that faith and courage to let my life speak as Parker Palmer speaks about in his book “Let Your Life Speak”. It can really be a fulfilling, adventurous, life filled with endless blessings. Today I while driving home from work, I cried because I wasn’t sure if I had what it takes to do this job, I cried from what I’ve seen so far while working in this job, and after tonight’s class I know I am on the right path and its something beautiful about letting your life be of service to others…
To be continued.
Inspired by skies
Being true to thyself
Focussing on deep breaths
Taking each step with blind faith
Knowing that tomorrow is never promised
Being thankful in the waking morning
Letting tears flow without knowing the reason why they formed
Meditating at the end the day to just to let go
Praying throughout the day because I’m holing on
Weak but strong
Contradictions no longer an alarm
Uncontrollable emotions that are controlled, but allowed to be felt
Being responsible but never losing the child inside
Life is simple live it
Life is complicated bring meaning to it
Remembering to laugh when life feels too serious
Be it in a mosque in union with salah
At a dinner table with family or friends breaking bread
At church performing transubstantiation
Chanting Om with a group of yogis sitting in lotus style
Feeling that energy that brings us all together as One
And knowing thyself all at once.
These are just some thoughts that are in my mind and heart.
There are so many signs around us and its the Universe trying to communicate, trying to guide, help, sometimes warn me..
Lately I’ve been paying attention to my personal signs and the Universe is letting me know that it Loves me unconditionally and even though it has had to teach me some very tough lessons in life, all of these lessons are out of love and to help mold me into the woman I am evolving into.
Even though I’m going to have to put in some serious hard work to accomplish my dreams, the Universe is letting me know that its there to help me and guide me and letting me know that all of God’s divine help is at my fingertips if not on my fingertips…
Today as I was reflecting on some of the signs presented to me lately and I started putting them together like a puzzle, I realized that the universe is communicating to me that its making life beautiful for me now, all I’ve got to do is keep on moving, continue with the change, let go and let Love and Live Life!
Change is a beautiful process.
The old lady had noticed the witch within the young lady and it had awakened a long memory that she had buried deep within her. She was reminded how she had abandoned the path of magic and gave up on her dreams, for what she thought would be a normal healthy life for her and her family. But her family had left her because her bitterness was too much for them to bear.
She felt anger, hurt, jealousy, all kinds of emotions stir up in her, that she didn’t want to feel or remember. She wanted to blame the young lady in front of her for these emotions, but she knew that the young lady had done nothing to her. She knew she could only blame herself.
She told the young lady to go to hell!
The young lady told her she could go to heaven and that it was so sad that she had lived such a short life at the age of 70.
They stared at each other eye to eye and a bridge was formed connecting the two.
The young ladies eyes told the older woman “don’t feel ill towards me because you see something inside of me that has reminded you of the path that you abandoned, the magic is still inside of you even at the tender age of 70, the path never abandoned you it was you who left it”.
The older woman wanted the girl to stop what she was doing but the Universe had to remind the lady she still had a purpose and that it’s love still exist for her. The Universe is always trying to teach sometimes using another person to show us our reflection.
The young lady broke the stare and gathered her belonging and bade farewell to the older woman. The young lady told her son to say goodbye to his great-grandmother as they departed.
The older woman pain wouldn’t allow her to see them out the door she sat down in her recliner and cried tears of dreams clouded by bitter and sorrow. The healing was taking place.