I should be writing that great story that sparked my imagination some weeks ago, but I sat on it for some time and it just seemed to slip my mind.
Naw, it is still here, but I’ve got better things to do like take self portraits of me on Instagram and figure out which setting suits me best. Look at the same time line over and over on facebook to see whats going on in the lives of my friends and family.
Its cold outside so I’m sitting in a starbucks that looks a little shady, but its warm inside. Which reminds me, last night on my break I decided to take a strole in DC (it was COLD AS A MONKEY’S ASS SITTING ON CONCRETE). As I walked by the public library, I noticed two long lines all homeless men, standing waiting in the cold dark night to see if they can get on this small van which I assumed would take them to shelter that night. I wanted to take a picture to have proof of this, but I felt like I would be invading their privacy in some sort of way. So here is a blury image.
A couple days ago I had drinks with one of my class mates, and she mentioned to me in conversation how she was homeless for about three or four months here in DC. She is the same age as I am an aspiring writer, which really hit me. She lived in her car in the midst of the winter time here in the Capital last year. Damn I’ve been really living a sheltered life. I do realize how difficult things can be, but there has got to be a solultion!
I wish there was something I could do to help change the situation for better.
Mind: So Heart you know I’ve been letting you have your way for almost 2.5yrs now! You fell in love with someone you thought was your soul mate and you would spend the rest of your life with. Well, what do you have to say about that?!
You wanted to quit the job, because things no longer felt right and you thought we should go in persuit of what you said would lead to our dream well I have to admit I thought it would lead to something good financially, I guess we where both wrong! But I wanted to stay until we came up with a plan a good plan before leaving, but you got desperately sad in this job and also tired of living in the desert and wanted to return to the states ASAP! I understood and felt your pain it was so deep it started to infect my mentality so be it you got your way we left! You told me that we should follow the signs I fell for your crazy ideas of signs and listening to angels; well, to be honest you have made me a believer in signs and angels, but I beg you to look at the current situation we are in now! Does it look good to you? What do you suggest now; heart? I’ve been trying to be a team player, but now I’m lost, I’m not sure where to go from here and I’m not sure if I can completely trust you any more with playing the role as a GPS system for our life. I want to be on your side because we share the same house and I’m not trying to split us into two, just give me some reassurance that things will pick up and we haven’t hit a constant down fall in life!
Heart: Stay focused Mind I understand your concern with not knowing what the future holds, remember what you read today in an email, “If we can recognize that change and uncertainty are basic principles, we can greet the future and the transformation we are undergoing with the understanding that we do not know enough to be pessimistic.”-Hazel Henderson (1981)
Please Mind have faith that our foot steps are ordered, have faith that Love is always on our side; it is better to have loved to have never loved before, it doesn’t matter that it didn’t work out the way I had desired it to, what matters is that you and I both know it was real and genuine, you understood it and I felt it! Calm down stay focused lets contine to praise God and recognize our journey as it plays out like the beautiful movie that it is and rejoice in it. You have to admit this new adventure really has been beautiful even with the painful truths that we have encountered so far, somethings that may seem ugly really are beautiful beneith all the tainted discoloration.
Mind: I will keep your words in mind, Heart just ease my mind from time to time please…
I received a beautiful card last night from a dear friend and I absolutely loved the words.
AN INSPIRATIONAL MESSAGE BY EMILY MATTHEWS
At times, life’s path
Seems filled with things
That make the going rough,
And we wish there were a smoother road,
For we feel we’ve had enough…
But if we pause a moment and remember Who’s in charge,
The hills that loom ahead of us
No longer seem so large,
And every rock before us,
When we know we’re not alone,
Becomes, not just a stumbling block,
But ne more stepping stone.
Those eyes, those eyes!!! Everything that seemed to exist at the moment stopped.
I can’t seem to stop thinking about those eyes and the moment time really didn’t exist. It really is real…
Well I’ve got a train, taxi, then plane to catch.
Maybe I can figure a little more out during my journey home.
I realized the soul can speak to you in so many ways giving you signs but you will only realize when its the right time.
Love, light, and peace.
A very important test is how you act when you can’t feel God’s presence in your life.
Life and the people who live it.
I made some Turkish Coffee this morning a tad bit strong, but tasty!
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