Category Archives: A Warriors Life

Mar 18

Viva Saint Joseph

Finding My Voice and Realizing My Strength

I was given a second chance to redeem my voice (check out the blog where I vent about loosing my voice in front of a room full of people)  in my Life, Learning, Vocation class a week ago. I did a speech on CHANGE for my last assignment and I surprised myself as I stood before the class and told my story before all my classmates and spoke on how change has brought me to this point where I am today.  I was true and pure as I delivered my speech with passion, clarity, tearful eyes, and all of my heart. I understand that my voice does matter and what I say embedded with divine meaning. God the Maker, Creator, Alpha, and Omega is good and I’m thankful and blessed to find my voice again along with so many other things that I had lost while out in the desert for eight years.

As April approach, reflection passes through my memory, reminding me where I was a year ago from now ( in the desert, growing, learning, and being broken, only to realize that I can be built again), it makes me smile with gratitude, knowing where I came from and how I got to where I am today. I was weak when I left Doha, Qatar April of last year, my spirit was fragile, my mentality scattered, and broken-hearted. I needed healing badly and the Maker knew this, so the Universe conspired making sure healing be brought into my life during this beautiful transition from the desert into a new terrain of life.

I know now that my strength comes from the Maker alone, when I close my eyes in meditation I’m reminded that the Universe is inside of me, I am one with All. There is no I, but there is One. A connection to all living things a Oneness, Peacefulness, and Understanding with each breath taken.

Wishing I could be in Greece this year praying, eating, and celebrating Saint Joseph’s Day with my WOL sisters and brothers, but I understand that I am where I am because there is divine purpose in every foot step that I take.

I dedicate this song to my family and WOL (Warrior of The Light) family. I love you all dearly.

I will be praying tomorrow on St. Joseph’s Day with all the WOL around the world.

Love, Light, and Live!

Viva St. Joseph!!!

Dec 24

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Blessed to feel life happening all around me and in me. A new awakening has happened.

This year’s Christmas has taken on a new meaning for me.
I’ve stepped out of the garments of organized religions and dogmas and was given a naked view of things (enlightenment).  It was a complex journey experiencing, practicing, and understanding multiple religions in different times of my life in the past 8 yrs of living abroad in Qatar.

I have embarked on this new journey back to the States and managed to shed myself of those garments. I haven’t lost the meaningful teachings from the different religions they will be forever embedded in my spirit helping me as I transform and grow in life. Does a caterpillar’s essence of life stop Being just because it sheds its skin and transforms into Butterfly?

I thought I would feel cold and lonely not wearing the garments that were decorated with many dogmas and accepted with open arms by others who wore garments that resembled each other in the name of conformity, but I’m not cold nor lonely as I stand naked and shameless! There is a warmth that covers my body its in the form of an invisible cloak made from God’s Love.

Each day since I have returned back home; I am reminded by those that truly matter; that I am loved and accepted as I am.

I’m sitting here on the floor on top of a blow up bed in my Father’s living room drinking green tea this early Christmas Eve morning and pondering about the meaning of Christmas, reminded as I look at the gifts under the small tree in front of me that gifts are given as an expression of our love for each other to represent how Jesus was a gift to Man kind for those who accepted His Love and even those who do not accept Him. I’m reminded how the Lord keeps on giving precious gifts day in and day out, but it’s up to us to open our spiritual eyes see these precious gifts and experience them with awareness.

2012 has been this big beautiful package filled with so many divine gifts from the Lord to me.
REFLECTING:
Earlier this year I made the decision to leave my job in Qatar the country I called home for over 8 yrs. I packed my bags went to Italy too see some great friends and celebrated St. Joseph’s day with them in Bassano Del Grappa, before heading to the USA. I am forever thankful to Paulo & Christina for being a Divine vessel to the Lord showing me and millions of others that there is no impossible nor coincidences, everything happens for reason, and if there is something that my heart truly desires the Universe will conspire and make it happen. 

Arriving back to the states: I Spent the end of Spring and Summer with my handsome Son; what a joy he is!!! I was able to make a new good friend Maria (my yoga teacher while in Anniston, Alabama http://www.yogaannistonalabama.com/ for the summer) She took me strawberry picking for the first time in my life, and help me find that sweet balance that I needed as I transitioned back into the USA.

After spending part of the summer in Alabama off I went to Washington, DC for 7 months, spent time with my friends John and Jay ( I love you guys and thankful for having you two in my life, when I say I love you I mean it from the entire essence of my heart and soul). They help me discover America’s capital mostly by foot and metro.

 The Lord brought my Sister an I closer than ever, she is truly one of my soul mates in this life. I love her so much it was pure joy spending time with her and her family before they moved abroad to Belgium. I love you All and miss you dearly have fun eating all those Brussel Spouts and thank you for opening the doors of your home to me and helping me in so many ways settle in.

I graduated from Aveda Institute in Washington, DC in the Esthiology program earlier this month 1 Dec 2012!!!! On this 6 month journey I gained a new family of beautiful Spa Sisters for life. A new friend (Ashley) that opened her doors to me  in a time of need. Those six months attending Aveda was bitter sweet, I wasn’t sure at one point if I would finish the program, I didn’t know where I would be living, if I would be able to find housing (homeless in DC is not a sight to see or feel), but the Lord kept a roof over my head and food on the table. God is good, answering my prayers and reassuring me that I’m on the right path 111.

I was Blessed to celebrate the precious life of my younger cousin E.J as his Spirit was set free and his body was put to rest. His ceremony of life allowed me to see my other cousins, aunts, and uncles on my Mother’s side of family that I hadn’t seen in over eleven yrs.

Kristen  my bestie of all besties!!! Appeared at my door steps in DC greeting me perm and all in my hair, so we could take a spur of the moment road trip to Philly to see our other bestie Lakia, her husband Jesse (as we call Brother Jesse) and their son little Jabril. I had not seen my girls in over 2 yrs since they left Qatar, in such a short time we created good times just like our great times in Qatar. I’m looking forward to our next reunion Besties. 

I just moved back to Florida earlier this month, and I was accepted into Eckerd College writing program!!!!!!! Yes, I am jumping off the walls and doing cartwheels in the sky!!! :D

I am feeling very blessed to spend this Christmas with my 90yr old grandma (Mama Cora), my daddy, my best friend of 19 yrs Roderick, and the rest of my father’s side of family here in Florida.  

God is so good to me and I’m so thankful as I travel this complex journey of life.

Thank you Lord for continuously restoring my faith and bringing new meaning to my life.

some photos of my 2012 journey.

Merry Christmas and A Blissful New Year to All!photophoto[1]

Jul 8

Thoughts this Sunday Morning

Inspired by skies

Avoiding lies

Being true to thyself

Focussing on deep breaths

Avoiding judgement

Embracing love

Taking each step with blind faith

Knowing that tomorrow is never promised

Being thankful in the waking morning

Letting tears flow without knowing the reason why they formed

Meditating at the end the day to just to let go

Praying throughout the day because I’m holing on

Weak but strong

Contradictions no longer an alarm

Uncontrollable emotions that are controlled, but allowed to be felt

Being responsible but never losing the child inside

Life is simple live it

Life is complicated bring meaning to it

Remembering to laugh when life  feels too serious

Union

ritualistic forms

Needed

Be it in a mosque in union with salah

At a dinner table with family or friends breaking bread

At church performing transubstantiation

Chanting Om with a group of yogis sitting in lotus style

Feeling that energy that brings us all together as One

And knowing thyself all at once.

These are just some thoughts that are in my mind and heart.

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Jun 8

Its never too late

The old lady had noticed the witch within the young lady and it had awakened a long memory that she had buried deep within her. She was reminded how she had abandoned the path of magic and gave up on her dreams, for what she thought would be a normal healthy life for her and her family.  But her family had left her because her bitterness was too much for them to bear.

She felt anger, hurt, jealousy, all kinds of emotions stir up in her, that she didn’t want to feel or remember. She wanted to blame the young lady in front of her for these emotions, but she knew that the young lady had done nothing to her. She knew she could only blame herself.

She told the young lady to go to hell!

The young lady told her she could go to heaven and that it was so sad that she had lived such a short life at the age of 70.

They stared at each other eye to eye and a bridge was formed connecting the two. 

The young ladies eyes told the older woman “don’t feel ill towards me because you see something inside of me that has reminded you of the path that you abandoned, the magic is still inside of you even at the tender age of 70, the path never abandoned you it was you who left it”.

The older woman wanted the girl to stop what she was doing but the Universe had to remind the lady she still had a purpose and that it’s love still exist for her. The Universe is always trying to teach sometimes using another person to show us our reflection.

The young lady broke the stare and gathered her belonging and bade farewell to the older woman. The young lady told her son to say goodbye to his great-grandmother as they departed.

The older woman pain wouldn’t allow her to see them out the door she sat down in her recliner and cried tears of dreams clouded by bitter and sorrow. The healing was taking place.