My mother is a hoarder, i’ve avoided this issue for some time, it was very easy for me to not address the issue, by living overseas or using the excuse that I have my life to live and I can’t solve every problem. Truth is, my mother is apart of my life, I love her unconditionally even though I wanted to conditionally so I didn’t have to address the issue of her living the way she does.

I’m not sure where to start, but I want to help my mother, not only with her house, but with her illness. Hoarding really is an illness and people do not realize this, I only came to realize that it was deeper than compulsive buying and collecting itemsj; this issue goes deeper into the mental and spiritual areas of the individuals life.

Moving back to the states has been a BIG eye opener to me, I’m not here to be super woman, but I will try to do all that can do. I have circles that need to be closed and I’m in the process of closing them, as new circles start to form.

Most of my mother’s family members that live close to her, do not have much interaction with her due to family issues or her pushing them away. She can be a tuff cookie at times and on the defensive side when someone brings up the subject of her house and secretly she ashamed because the better half of her that knows that she has a problem feels ashamed and wants to hide behind the material things.

The mental issues have transformed into physical also…

Since my last visit about a week ago, when i think of it or even try to attempt to visualize how i will resolve and get help for my mother my throat becomes closed, and my eyes start to water up! Lord, I need a miracle!

I want my mother to get better and live better…

How?