So over the past four months I have been deciding if I should wear my hair in its natural state or continue to keep putting chemicals in my hair that makes it straight but at the same time dry, brittle, and makes it hard for my hair to grow past a certain length. So I decided last week to go natural after growing four months of new growth. I decided to go ahead and do the CHOP! I’m in complete shock now I don’t have much hair I’ve worn my hair short before 3years ago, I looked cute if I may say so myself then, this time for some reason I’m not liking it AT ALL, skin needs a boost and my self confidence needs a major boost! I guess somewhere throughout the years my self-esteem went down hill. Well, what better time to work on it. I haven’t taken any pictures of my short hair do, but here is a picture of me three years ago with short hair.
Ahhhh I feel better just venting about this
oh I have got to get use to the natural texture of my hair again.
My favorite song!!!!!!!!
We walked through this park its a beautiful night you wanted me to see how beautiful the park was but my mind was not there I was too worried about who would see us. fast forward to the future we are walking in a park I am not sure if its the same park or not there are kids running and laughing, the lake is shining from the moon’s light, the wind is cool on my face, my heart is at ease I’m not worried about who will see us because I am with only you.
I’m in the present and I’m not sure of your whereabouts so my mind takes flight to find you. You are standing in front of me, my mind tries to bring me out of this thought process telling me that I should not be thinking of you, my heart tells my mind “its ok, calm down, its not harming anyone to think about the man you love”. My heart starts to think and realizes that the heart is right I smile and feel calm. All three agree finally!
Three days ago a man walks up to me and ask me “what did he do to you to make you cut all your hair off”? I look at him confused, he says “only a man will make a woman who is straight chop all her hair off”. I tell him, “he left”…… The man walks away feeling my sorrow.
Will destiny take care of us?
I read that a woman or a man should never be with anyone who isn’t as glad to see you as you are to see them. My mind drifted to the past… Every time you where in my presence if its physical or mental I have always been more than glad to see you. My mind drifted to the future I know that soon as i lay eyes on you i will be filled with joy, I am joyful when I think about it.
I’ve never had to pretend with you, i never had to pretend that I love you, because love didn’t give me a chance to decide if I wanted to love you or not it just happened. I never had to pretend when it came to love making it came naturally and I must say its better than any deep tissue massage I have ever had.
Even with my uncertainties and doubts that seem to come and go like the ocean’s tide, I am for certain that I am in Love with you and there is no coming and going when it comes to that. Yes, its a mystery like the after life, but its real like the air we breathe.
In the old the new is hidden in the new the old is revealed.
I’m walking through mango clothing store and I start reading these colorful t-shirts with different quotes on them and I’m like these shirts are cute and I’m digging the quotes and I look down and see Paulo Coelho face on what looks like a book. I say to myself when did Mango start selling books? I’m not understanding this at all, so I pick up the book and I realize its not a book its a box (my brain is slowly processing the fact that the cool shirts above the mock book is shirts by Paulo Coelho and inside of the book box is the shirts), the light in my head turns on and I want to scream and do a dance in the middle of the store! Yes, I’m a Nerd
The store salesman walks up to me and I say to him “I know this man he is my friend” and he gives me this look like yeah right so you read his books “what size would you like mam”? I look at him like seriously I’m not joking and I tell him a size large! I grab my cell phone and snap a couple of pictures and call Sara who also is a friend of Paulo and tell her what I have discovered and she tells me she saw them yesterday and we start giggling like teenagers. If your in Doha, Qatar you can find them at any mall with a Mango store inside
I’m so excited that Paulo has decided to venture out into the fashion world~~~ “Conscious Clothing” with conscious quotes and earth friendly material. What better way to get a message across. Not everyone read books, some prefer to watch fashion or read fashion I like both; so I got me a couple of the shirts to represent. Yes, fashion is fun and really fun when you expressing what you feel on your clothes.
Paulo you just keep on keeping on…… there is always a surprise around the corner when it comes to you!!!